Disturbed State of Mind

If I could ever travel back far in time
I’m sure my life would be ever so sublime
That it can never be done
Is a reality from where I run!

Every human desires to be happy
An erring desire that can only keep us unhappy
Is it even worth knowing answers to problems?
Or is it okay to pile on to the mountain of conundrums?

Why should the "I" in me be any different form the "I" in You?
Is the whole idea of non-duality true?
Is Peace achieved through one voice out-voicing the other?
Or should I just remain an unheard voice and not bother?

How can one attempt to remain spiritual?
If the materialistic pull wins every duel?
Are my questions merely rhetoric?
Or are these the inquiries of every lunatic?

I look up to life as my Guru
But still wake up looking for my teacher - Where are You?
While I continually hope to learn from every human
Is it in my father that I see the answer to every question?